What does it mean when you kiss me?

When you put yor heart into it and i feel nothing.

When you try so hard to please me yet I take advantage of it.

When you hurt I laugh at you because your pathetic.

When you cry I just look at you and walk away.

When your gone....I suddenly want you..

When I hate myself because of all the things I did to you.

When I look at you it just isn't the same.

When I grab you hand to try to remember your touch.

When I cry but I look disusting.

When I try to speak.....I just can't...

When I think back to the good times and bad times

I fall to the floor and wish you still would hold me like you used to

When I open my eyes I feel you hug me and tell me "Everything will be ok." in the tone that you sound like you still

love me....

why?

And.....And....And...then you kiss me

And for some reason I put my energy into it as you do......

LOVE??